Tuesday, December 28, 2004
'Wow! What a Ride!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
HOME AGAIN
I was well taken care of by my Dad, he kept me company when I was feeling sick and depressed.
Leila was well loved and cared for during the nearly three weeks I had to stay a safe distance from her. It was one of the hardest things I have had to do in my adult life, to be near my baby but not hold her, feed her or kiss her. It was a joyful reunion when I finally felt safe to care for her full-time again.
Leila has grown so much in the 5 weeks we were away from home. She is chubby! She coos and tries to talk all the time and responds to every expression we make with smiles. She took the moving around from Mom's, Sarah's and Grandma's homes like a champ - like it was just another day and a new "mommy". I am so proud of her.
Now that I am home I sure miss my family. There are so many people and things going on - I had forgotten what it was like to be in action all the time. Here in northern California it is such a slow-paced lifestyle.
Dad, Mom, Sarah, Parker, Andy, Stephy - I miss you already.
Love you.
Friday, December 03, 2004
Thursday, December 02, 2004
THYROID TREATMENTS TRIP ALARMS, STUDY FINDS
By Liz Szabo, USA TODAY
Most seasoned travelers know that their watches and belt buckles can set off airport metal detectors. A new study also shows that patients who have certain medical procedures might themselves set off security sensors designed to find "dirty" bombs or other radioactive weapons.
Patients may emit small amounts of radiation after being treated with radioactive iodine, for example, or after being injected with compounds used in PET scans, bone scans and cardiac stress tests, says Lionel Zuckier, a radiology professor at New Jersey Medical School.
Patients have been treated with "radiopharmaceuticals" for years, and 16 million nuclear medicine procedures are performed each year, according to the Society of Nuclear Medicine. Since 2001, however, doctors say they're hearing about more patients setting off portable radiation detectors used in subways, tunnels and other public places, says Zuckier, who presented his findings Tuesday at the annual meeting of the Radiological Society of North America in Chicago.
Patients injected with a material called FDG before having a PET scan stop emitting a detectable level of radiation within 24 hours. But patients undergoing iodine therapy for thyroid conditions emit radiation for 95 days.
Many doctors say they now provide patients with detailed explanations of their treatments, along with telephone and pager numbers, just in case patients are stopped by security. Chaitanya Divgi, a nuclear medicine specialist at New York's Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center, says security officers have called about his patients 15 to 20 times since 2001.
One elderly couple in a Winnebago were detained last year at a bridge at the Canadian border while trying to return to Michigan from a camping trip. The man recently had been treated with iodine-131 for his thyroid, says Michele Beauvais, director of nuclear pharmacy at William Beaumont Hospital in Royal Oaks, Mich., where the man was treated. The patient showed border guards a card explaining his treatment.
"The guards said, 'Well, you can go, but we have to keep the Winnebago,' " Beauvais says. "It kept setting off the sensors." Guards eventually realized the suspicious signals were coming from the contents of the Winnebago's toilet. "None of the people at the bridge wanted to empty it," Beauvais says, "so they eventually let him go."
...hmmm... I should have an interesting time getting through Orange County and Sacramento Airports on December 10th when I fly home!
I TALKED TO THE DOCTOR!
Here it is.. the doctor said "it's a good scan, Christy - those are good results"
... I do wonder why he didn't just SAY THAT into my answering machine instead of rambling on and sounding so weird.
I asked if the uptake in the nasal area could have been from the cold or congestion that I have and he agreed that it could have been as that would not be the kind of place one would find thyroid cancer.
I asked what it meant that there was 'uptake' shown on the scan and he said that they expect to show uptake in the scan.. if there had been no uptake then it would have meant they didn't give me enough I-131. The uptake is where there is still residual thyroid tissue (healthy or cancerous, no way to tell the difference from this). The I-131 is also typically taken up in specific tissues like the thymus (middle upper chest region), breasts, liver, stomach, bowel, urinary tract including the bladder. However, the I-131 will continue to work for a number of months to kill off all thyroid tissue, whether cancerous or healthy. The key here is no "abnormal" uptake outside of those areas!
I inquired why he had made the comment that my case was not as straightforward as most - since no other doctor has referred to me in this way it had confused me. He apologized and explained he said so because I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer while pregnant, which was very uncommon. Thyroid cancer is uncommon enough by itself... he said "you sure had a lot going on at one time!" (agreed).
I asked him if this meant that the cancer could come back eventually. He said yes. That with cancer there are no guarantees of a cure. They expect that this will have taken care of it, and I will continue to be monitored regularly with blood tests and periodic scans like the one I just had. If it starts to show again then they will just take care of it with surgery or another blast or radioactivity.
I'm not worried. I feel like I have been through the worst of this adventure - the unknown - and whatever may happen in the future will not be as devastating as what I have gone through this year.
Thank you, everyone, for your prayers, encouragement and support. It has continued to lift me when I felt like I couldn't even think straight!
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
sodium iodide symporters & other information
It was explained to me that the I-131 ablation (treatment) will continue to work for a number of months to kill off all thyroid tissue, whether cancerous or healthy. Another lady said that uptake in salivary glands is very normal.
I Just read this online regarding sodium Iodide Symporters "...Other tissues in humans contain sodium iodide symporters: the gastric mucosa, salivary glands, mammary glands, choroid plexus, ovaries, placenta, and skin (Smanik and others 1996~. Breast tis- sue, which contains iodine symporters, can therefore pump iodine into breast milk." http://books.nap.edu/books/030906175X/html/45.html
it's from a report or book titled "Exposure of the American People to Iodine-131 from Nevada Nuclear-Bomb Tests: Review of the National Cancer Institute Report and Public Health Implications" from the National Academies Press
What the Report Says
"Uptake is seen in the lower neck presumably in the area of the thyroid and there is lesser area of uptake above that, likely also in the thyroid bed. A fair amount of uptake is seen in the salivary glands and there is some asymmetry with uptake on the left probably in the nasal sinus. Some bilateral uptake is seen in the breasts likely due to the sodium iodide symporters. No areas of abnormal uptake are seen in the chest, abdomen or pelvis."
I know that the fact there there were no areas of abnormal uptake elsewhere is a good thing...
but is the rest good, bad or indifferent?
Waiting to Talk to a Doctor on the Phone - need some answers!
So yesterday's 'waiting for answers' only panned out confusion for me. I am trying again today. Early this morning I placed calls to both the Chico doc's office and also to the doc here at Hoag (the one that administered the treatment) & left messages requesting a phone consultation. I just want to ask some questions.
What does all that stuff mean? Could someone please explain in plain layman's English so I can comprehend what is going on in my body? LOL. It really doesn't seem like too much to ask.
I am making plans to go to the records department of the hospital this morning and pick up a copy of the actual report so I can have it with me and in front of me when a doctor calls.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Scan Results, kind of confusing
I waited and waited for the doctor's call. It never came. Suddenly it occurred to me that maybe they called my home phone! So I called home and played back all the messages, unfortunately there were two weeks of phone messages which had not been deleted so I had to listen to all of them FIRST... it took 12 minutes.
Last call was from the doctor who is filling in for my Radiation Oncologist this week. He indicated that my "case is not as straight-forward" as most... The radiologist that read the pictures indicated that there was some uptake in the thyroid bed which was to be expected. Also there was some uptake in the nose(?) but he may have said nodes (it is hard to understand when listening to the messages via my cellphone) - he said that radiologist was not sure whether or not this was 'significant'. He said "things look about as well as can be expected" (what the heck does that mean?)
He didn't mention any other areas of involvement and said "all and all things look great."
He said I can call the office tomorrow, he won't be in but I can talk to one of the other doctors. Basically that means that I can call back, leave a message and wait all day for someone to call me again.
I almost wish I hadn't heard the phone message. All it has done was given me more questions.
At least he didn't say that they want me to come in to discuss it - that would have meant bad news (in my opinion)
Waiting for Scan Results
Will post results as soon as I know.
Whole Body Scan (a.k.a. WBS)
Now I get to wait two days and make phone calls to find out which doctor I talk to so I can get some answers.
Sunday, November 28, 2004
"Who You Are" by Lanette Fernandez
"Who You Are"
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I find myself on the downhill slide of yet another trial in my life where confusion seemed to be the only thing I was sure of.
Who, what, why, when, how, and how long were the questions I didn't have answers for. Last night, I sat quietly and instead of asking, I just listened. God whispered to me.
Who I am is a child of His. What I am is a wife and mother. Why is something we can only figure out as we go along.When is always and can never be more than right here and right now (live for today). How is only with His help, and how long depends mostly on us. He explained to me that I am who and what I am (don't try to be any more or any less) therefore I need to do and be the best that I can at all times.
I get discouraged, but I also have the ability to inspire and be inspired. I become sad sometimes, but I can also experience joy. I can become angry, but I have the heart to console. I need to be forgiven sometimes (a lot) but I can also forgive. I feel helpless at times, but can still lend a hand or ear to help others. I am a teacher, but I still have much to learn. I get confused, but deep down I know the answers are within my grasp. It is the same grasp that boldly lifts my hands to Heaven, and gently brings me to my knees. Sometimes I feel lost, but that is merely an illusion because it is not only enough for my Father to know where I am and exactly what I am going through, He has every hair on my head numbered.
Life is a series of lessons to be learned. That is the only way we can grow. I wish I had all the answers, but sometimes I think (I know) the only way for us to become stronger and grow into what He wants us to be, is to walk through the fire. So, whatever you're going through, hold your head up, guard your heart, and put all your faith and trust in the only ONE who will never fail you....... JESUS.......
Remember all the things you can be even when you are sometimes those things you wish you weren't.
~ Lanette Fernandez, Wyoming
Saturday, November 27, 2004
I Refuse to Stay Sick
My adventure in thyroid withdrawal and RAI treatment.. the short story
Oh I am doing okay so far. As ever, there was still a lot of confusion or should I say a lack of agreement as far as how long I should stay away from Leila. My doc in Chico (where I live) said basically to stay away from her for 7-11 days totally and then to spend time with her during the day afterwards at varying degrees of proximity. The doctors here in southern California where I was treated with the RAI had the usual cavalier attitude.... just stay away from babies and pregnant women for 7 days. flush 3 times and launder seperately for the first 4 days.
They gave me 98.4 millicuries which I asked why it wasn't 100 mci? They said that as long as it is within 10% of the "dose" it still counts as the full dose.....I said "okay... that is weird", but what the hell do I know about radioactive iodine.
I didn't get a whole body scan (WBS) before treatment. they said they don't do that here as a rule... that they were giving me the dose or RAI no matter what an WBS would show. so much for hoping for that miracle from God saying I wouldn't need the RAI after all. hahahah pardon my sarcasm, it is keeping me relatively sane. I will get my WBS Mon Nov 29th. I have no idea what it entails, how long it takes, if it is an MRI etc... as usual they are keeping me in the dark until the day of the procedure. I have long since given up the idea of control in my life otherwise I would be looking for someone's butt to chew.
the whole hypothyroid roller coast was HELL...!! it was everything I had read about online from all the other people who had been through it - about the neurotic feelings, dropping things, standing in front of the refrigerator for 10 minutes looking for the hairbrush, losing the train of thought in the middle of a conversation. I said my brain became like an etch-a-sketch - all nice and pretty one minute and a blank screen the next. Interestingly enough the tendonitis in my thumbs which was very painful went away when I was on NO Levoxyl. So it confirms what I thought which that either I can't tolerate high doses of levoxyl or that just having high doses of synthetic thyroid in my system does not agree with my joints and tendons since I end up in chronic achy feelings in all kinds of places.
Then there is the low-iodine diet a.k.a welcome to the "land of bland". My doc at home was sort of ... well, he didn't seem to think it mattered whether or not I did the low iodine diet before treatment!! I didn't believe that. I chatted with too many other thyca patients on yahoo groups to know that it IS important to help assure a better treatment, especially the first time. I like my doctor and all, but he also didn't take me off of the thyroid meds early enough. So when I got here they tested my TSH and it was only 1.8. Not high enough to give me the RAI. I had to WAIT ANOTHER WEEK!! Another week on that diet too. I was ready to go ballistic on someone, I tell ya. I exercised a lot of self control and did alot of praying for strength and acceptance. Unfortunately I live in a small community and my alternatives for treatments and doctors are very limited unless I travel 3 hours to San Francisco every time.
The doc here that gave me the RAI told me I could start taking the Levoxyl the morning following treatment and I sure did. 175mcg Levoxyl which made me extremely dizzy and achy for the first 4 days after I started taking it. I guess it was a shock to my system. Howoever it has been 10 days on it and I already feel better, not as heady and weird, not as forgetful and certainly NOT AS TIRED! hallelujah. When I get home I will consult with the internist, not the radiation oncologist, about my correct dosage because I don't think I should be on such a high dose for a long period of time or it could bring on heart problems and osteoporosis. Just what I don't need.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!
I have two Thanksgiving events to go to, which will mean too much eating followed by a much-needed turkey induced NAP.
Well I do believe I have bronchitis since I now have the congestion I was wondering about yesterday. No problem since I started taking Echinacea and Goldenseal at the onset of symptoms and then started drinking Echinacea Ginger Tonic today (which tastes horrible, yuck).
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
New Symptoms
I am 500 miles from home for treatment for thyroid cancer, and sort of hanging by a thread. My doc at home defers to the doc here who defers back to my doc at home so I don't get any real answers or help. It is an endless maddening cycle for me, in this time when I really need some stability. I don't have an endo, there are none in my area who will take my insurance so I am being treated by a radiation oncologist. So far I have managed to get the RAI and am supposed to have a WBS on Nov 29th. In the meantime I am trying diligently to take care of myself and not freak out over every little detail since no one in the medical profession wants to answer my questions!
Monday, November 22, 2004
Baby Girl
I have been able to see my little precious baby twice, but have stayed a cautious six feet away. That's hard to do when she is laying there trying to talk, making all those cute little baby sounds. The last two days she was really "going to town" almost like she is excited to hear her own voice and she erupts into a smile so easily when anyone tells her she is a "pretty girl". Just warms the heart.
My next big event is Thanksgiving with the family! I have two events to go to, I will probably be worn out after the first one. I have noticed that after a few hours of functioning that I become very lethargic.
I try not to push it too much, just take my time and relax with a book or a magazine if I am unable to sleep (which is often).
The side effects of the treatment are weird. there were those immediate effects which came along in the first hours and then over the next few days. Now I am a week past treatment and new stuff is coming along!
Friday, November 19, 2004
The Feeling of Disappointment
At least I have my family. They have not let me down!
This being secluded from the rest of the world is horrible. How can people stand this for long periods of time? Even if I don’t feel like talking to people, I can usually go sit in a coffee shop or a movie theater alone – but not right now. UGH!
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
ANSWERS TO YOUR QUESTIONS
I have received several phone calls and email inquiries from my friends and family asking about how everything works and how many chemo treatments I am getting, etc. I am not getting radiation or chemotherapy! This is a one-treatment deal. Thyroid cancer is rare, only about 20,000 people a year are diagnosed (representing about 1 percent of all cancers), which means the treatment is different from conventional cancer treatments like chemo and radiation.
The I-131 (radioactive iodine) is what was found in nuclear fallout from the above-ground testing in Nevada also at places like Hiroshima and Chernobyl. It destroys thyroid cells and can cause cancer (including Leukemia and Lymphoma). For those people whose thyroid gland has been removed, a high dose is used to kill thyroid cancer cells remaining anywhere in the body. This high dose given to me can only be given once every six months, but if it works the first time I may not have to repeat unless the cancer comes back years down the road. It is very toxic which is why it's not given in several doses for weeks at a time( like chemo or radiation) and why I have to remain a safe distance from people for the first week following treatment.
Basically I took this pill which was delivered to me in a lead container, you know, with all the "RADIOACTIVE - CAUTION" stickers everywhere. Talk about a controlled substance! Then they made me stand at the door, held a yardstick to me and measured with a Geiger counter to measure the amount of radiation emanating from my body. I was then sent home to where I am staying with explicit instructions about exposing others. I am kind of like the boy in a bubble right now... in two weeks I go back to the hospital for a whole body scan (probably MRI) to see what happened with the treatment, to see if there are any hot spots or cancer showing up anywhere. I am praying for a clean scan.
Leila is with my mom. I cannot see her at all for one whole week, afterwards I can spend time with her during the day but not get real close or hold her for a few weeks. After three weeks I am basically considered ok to hold my baby near me again.
At this time I wear rubber gloves while typing on the computer so that I don't leave radioactive waste on it. I have to use plastic utensils and plates for the first week and wash my laundry separately. 24hrs after treatment I was able to resume my regular eating habits, what a tremendous relief!
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
The Day After Treatment
I'm feeling a little better tonight, I am ready to tackle a big fat burrito with hot sauce ....ahhhhh... three weeks on a special plain diet was hell, I'll tell ya.
Monday, November 15, 2004
Treatment Day! YEAH!
Okay I survived the wait of the extra week until I could get my thyroid cancer treatment. I'll tell you, that really was the WORST of it so far. Going in - heart and mind set to get it done and move on, only to be told "no, your body is not ready yet ... come back next week and we will try again." Aaaaaaaaaaaaaack! I do believe my theme song for this period was "Anticipation"
For lunch today I swallowed two blue pills containing a total of 100 millicuries of radioactive iodine. They were brought to me in a lead container with radioactive-warning labels on it, inside were plastic vials containing the radioactive iodine pills. The pills were metallic blue and sort of heavy feeling. YUM!! Actually I was so happy they even allowed me to do it today that I almost jumped out of the chair to hug the doctor and physicist. Of course then they would have sent me to the psych ward via those nice young men in their clean white coats. hahahahah. They didn't make me stay in the hospital - it was all done outpatient style. Just like a drive thru, if you think about it. "Welcome to Nuclear Medicine, may I take your order? Just swallow these two pills and think nice thoughts about your cancer cells dying the miserable death they deserve… Thank you, have a nice day!"
When I came home I felt fine. After about an hour I began to feel extremely tired and cold, so I took a nap for a few hours. Now I just feel the need to let everyone know that I am okay and going through the radioactive adventure. Basically I just wait for the stuff to get through my system and do its job. It will ablate or kill any remaining thyroid cancer cells and eventually dissipate from my body. For the first week I will have to remain a safe distance from people and stay away from children, including my own (sadly). Also cannot eat out at restaurants or go to the movies, for the safety of others and to make sure I get nice and bored. I have the laptop with me and am so far successfully typing this with latex gloves on so I don't leave any radioactive residue that might come out of my pores on the keyboard.
I will be able to chat on yahoo messenger, if you have it. Look for me to be online. I appreciate email, you will probably get an auto reply at first but I will do my best to keep up with all of you.
Words of Encouragement
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
-- Maya Angelou
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Everyone keeps asking where I am? I wish I knew...
Leila is my reason for waking up every day and she makes me smile when I don't feel like it. She is just fabulous and healthy - thank God! She is still cooing a lot and I swear somedays she is on the verge of saying something, but I know its way too soon. She is 24" long now and probably around 12lbs.
Sunday, September 19, 2004
CANCER IS SO LIMITED........
CANCER IS SO LIMITED........
It cannot cripple love,
It cannot shatter hope,
It cannot corrode faith,
It cannot eat away peace,
It cannot destroy confidence,
It cannot kill friendship,
It cannot shut out memories,
It cannot silence courage,
It cannot invade the soul,
It cannot reduce eternal life,
It cannot quench the spirit,
It cannot lessen the power of the resurrection.
Friday, August 13, 2004
Baby Leila Arrives
Baby's birthday went off without a hitch. My whole family was here, so we were totally surrounded with love and prayers. The c-section went well - and it was so fast - about 30 minutes total (thank God). After delivery, Leila's breathing was a bit labored at first because of the type of delivery, c-section babies have a tendency to swallow amniotic fluid and have to work harder to clear their lungs. This just meant a short time in the nursery where she could be monitored. She recovered very quickly after lots of long loud cries (she wanted to be with her mommy!). She was brought to my recovery room where our visitors were able to come in two at a time. We all got to watch the nurse giver her the first bath after which she was handed to me for loving hugs and breastfeeding. The staff of Enloe Hospital did a fabulous job - the nurses are top-notch and really went the extra mile to make us comfortable.
Monday, July 26, 2004
Going for a second opinion
My OB/Gyn referred me to two new doctors (an Internal Med Specialist & an Oncologist), one I saw last week wants me to NOT WAIT to have the radioactive iodine treatment,, he wants me to have it as soon as I can after the baby's birth (probably one month after) and I am a little scared about it.
I am waiting for the other doc's office to call - my OB wanted me to get more opinions on treatment because he ALSO personally thinks its better not to wait a couple of months! This just makes things more difficult, going through RAI with a one month old baby and having to be away from her for a week after treatment. So it looks like sooner rather than later. I will get about 4-6 weeks off meds to get my TSH levels high enough to uptake the radioactive iodine, breastfeed my baby as much as possible in that time and recover from c-section. oh boy, how is that for a menu?
Sunday, May 02, 2004
What is RAI or I-131?
I had a large tumor, over 1.5cm plus several other small tumors which HAVE metastasized to my lymph nodes, this means I might still have cancer. Removing the thyroid gland alone is not enough once it has spread from that area. Unfortunately all the doctors I have seen in the last 7 years never thought it necessary to pursue other testing or treatment and I didn't know any better since I didn't have symptoms to speak of.... if they had, my life today and my cancer experience would have been leagues different. That depresses me and makes me sick at my stomach everytime I think about it.
Anyhow they have to give me the RAI to make sure to kill the cancer cells that might still be in there.
I just read a disturbing article that came out April 27th regarding potential neural development difficulties for children born to women with Hashimoto's or thyroid issues.... it is from the American Thyroid Assoc, a legit organization. So the theory of waiting until after baby is born to remove these potential problems is going to be an old-fashioned theory someday real soon.... another reason I am glad I listened to my instincts. I can only pray that my baby won't be damaged in some way from my messed up body. Makes me sick.
I hope my docs know what they are doing too. I am reading constantly to educate myself on these issues so I will know that what they are doing is correct protocol and also so I will ask the right questions, ask for the right tests, etc. I have already requested one blood test I will get next week that my doc would not have suggested, I explained why and he agreed and ordered it up. I have already purchased two recently published books which are sold by subscription only to doctors and researchers. I am half way through the first one.
Friday, April 30, 2004
Pregnancy Complications and Thyroid
By the way, there is a brand new publication out regarding "Pregnancy Complications and Deficits in Infant and Child Intellectual Development Are Focus of New ATA Statement and Discussion at Symposium on Thyroid Health in Pregnant Women" (click on the title of this post to read it).
Anyhow, that is about it for now. I am trying to stay focused on this baby. I pray for her safety through all of this chaos my body has gone through recently and during my entire pregnancy.
Why I don't trust any Doctor Anymore...
My incision area is healing nicely, I have been putting vitamin E on it and it looks pretty good. Doc told me to buy Mederma for scarring, I prefer natural stuff and can't afford non-prescription medicine right now anyway. He gave me a sample, and I do mean it was one measly little sample...wooohooo.
I left a message for my radiation oncologist to ask if, based on path reports post surgery etc, would he want me to do the RAI earlier rather than waiting say 6 months or so? I am not really happy right now and trying to determine how to deal with this. In reply he had his assistant call and find out what kind of meds I am taking, and when I am having blood tests and then had her tell me that he just wants me to wait until after the baby is born before he will determine my treatment protocol. I tried diligently to explain to the assistant that I am 500 miles away from family and help, and does he really want me to make decisions post-partum with a newborn in hand....?? etc... she says, “yes just make an appt to see him after your baby is born”. I am feeling very aggravated by this. I told her I need to make plans well in advance to get someone up here to help me, if he wants me to have treatment 3 weeks after birth, that won't be enough time. She didn't seem very sympathetic. I feel like a sheet in the wind somedays. just blown back and forth.
I am now reading medical journals, publications and textbooks so I better understand all about thyroid cancer and treatments. I figure if I don't educate myself on this, how will I know if my doctors are doing what is best for me? I find it hard to just "trust" all of them now... knowing that this cancer has grown in me for years undiagnosed by several doctors who told me, "go home, you are fine". hahahaha. the path report post surgery also diagnosed me with chronic thyroiditis, Hashimoto's. How about that? none of those doctors noticed that either!
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Surgical Pathology Report
An interesting note was that the path report states I had "Patchy Mild Chronic Thyroiditis". My doc says this is also known as "Hashimoto's Thyroiditis" which is caused by a reaction of the immune system against the thyroid gland & may rarely be associated with other endocrine disorders caused by the immune system. It's likely I had this for many years, undiagnosed, and ultimately I ended up with cancer.Doctor says we are on the same plan so far: wait until the baby is born and then I will have the iodine uptake test to find if there are "markers" elsewhere in my remaining lymph nodes or body. They usually do a whole body scan. I will definitely need to have the I-131 radioactive iodine treatment to kill any cancerous cells that might be in my body. I will continue to take the Synthroid thyroid meds as suppression therapy for the rest of my life. Regular screening and blood tests will also be in my future forever!
NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS, I CONSIDER MYSELF A CANCER SURVIVOR!
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Recovering from Thyroidectomy
Monday, April 19, 2004
Home from the Hospital
Monday, April 05, 2004
Surgery on April 16th
Sunday, April 04, 2004
Pregnancy & Cancer Research... continued
Friday, April 02, 2004
Pregnancy & Cancer Research
Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Off to see the Radiation Oncologist
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Meeting with the Surgeon re: Total Thyroidectomy
Monday, March 22, 2004
That scary phone call I wasn't expecting...
I have papillary carcinoma. Thyroid cancer.
okay, yeah... this is scary now. He says the 2nd trimester is the safest time during pregnancy for surgery & refers me to a surgeon.
I am 19 weeks pregnant.
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Biopsy of the Thyroid
Monday, March 08, 2004
Getting the Second Opinion
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Follow up visit & Ultrasound result - 14 weeks pregnant
So during this appt, he reviewed the radiologist's report regarding my thyroid ultrasound. Apparently I have a 2.8cm x 1.2 cm nodule on the right side. Normally they would consider it a no big deal - "ignore it" kind of thing - but the ultrasound showed is increased vascularity to the region and the radiologist recommended it be checked further. Of course my doc delivers babies, he doesn't know much about thyroid (admittedly) so I have been referred to ANOTHER doctor!
This doc is supposed to provide a "second opinion" as to whether or not to request a biopsy. I am going to assert myself in this appointment and press the issue.
Anyhow I am going to see if I can convince to go ahead and do a biopsy. It would give me tremendous peace of mind to know what it really is or isn't. This appointment isn't until March 8th which is 4 days after I have amniocentisis to check out the baby. anticipation....
I am feeling more pregnant everyday. I think this baby grew twice it's size in one week! All of a sudden pants don't fit and sheesh, nothing looks good on me anymore. Who knew that one day I would be admitting that maternity pants are SO COOL!! heheheh. I gave in and put on a pair, and oh what a relief to not have to unbutton anymore.
Okay I am going to wrap this letter up - I need to be horizontal for awhile. Time to go to bed.
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Thyroid Ultrasound
Monday, February 02, 2004
Preface
Since these levels came out "normal" and I was not symptomatic of Hyperthyroid or Hypothyroid disorders, none of my doctors pursued any further testing nor did they refer me to an endocrinologist for further examination. In retrospect, I wish I had known to ask for a referral a specialist, because I had a sleeping dragon in my body, so to speak! But they told me I was "ok", to go home and not worry, so I did that.
Prior to moving to Chico my last regular annual exam was in July 2003. I asked the doc to check my thyroid, he noticed the goiter, ran the same tests and everything again was normal. End of story.
After finding out that I was pregnant in December 2003, my first OB appt was in January 2004, this was a new doctor for me - I asked him to check my thyroid. Upon palpation he noticed a nodule on the right hand side (in addition to the obvious goiter) and asked me if my last doctor had mentioned it to me? Uhhhh…no…..and what is a nodule? Doc referred me to the radiologist to have an ultrasound of the area on my neck where he felt the nodule. It took several weeks to get into the place and have this done.